I just don’t get it. It seems like my mom doesn’t trust me at all. I do my share of the housework, I get good grades, I don’t party or stay out too late, I don’t sneak out, I don’t do drugs or get fucked up with my friends on the weekend, and yet she got mad at me for coming home after 10 because of practice, and now she’s forbidding me from going to practice tomorrow, the day before freaking Maxt Out!

I just don’t get it. It seems like whatever I do is not enough for my mom. It’s not like I’m not going to go to a university, or do something stupid to ruin my entire life. She knows I’m too smart to do that, and yet she still treats me like a freaking child. I am out doing something I love, and she gets fucking mad at me. I just don’t get it… I just don’t.

Okay, so I took this political compass test for AP Gov, to see what my political standings are. The results kinda freaked me out a little. Apparently, I’m a mild left authoritarian… which means I’m like a mild mix of Commie and Fascist… which means that my viewpoints are simliar to that of Mao Tse Tung, Kim Jong Il, and Fidel Castro. XD. It also shows a comparison of the other major political figures in history, and the person I’m closest to in terms of political ideals is Stalin! Well, he’s still pretty radical compared to me, but still! Dude, wth!

Dangit, I wanted to be a politician someday, but no one’s gonna elect someone who’s a mild commie fascist. XD. Well, this blog would probably ruin my chances anyways, but still…

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So, I currently have three “STAY POSTIVE” V-necks and I have no use in the other two shirts so I’m gonna give them away!

So here’s what to do:

• You must reblog this post.
• You have to follow me.
• You have to be in the US(Sorry, my parents are too cheap to ship outside of the country).

CONTEST ENDS IN NOVEMBER 20

On November 20, I’ll choose someone at random that reblogged this post and they’ll be the winner! I will message you my email and you must email me back within 24 hours. If you do reply, you must reply with your address. Don’t worry. I’ll delete it after and I won’t share it with anyone. 

Btw, the shirts are size medium. Reason why I’m giving them away since they don’t fit me and the one I’m keeping is a size small.

I’ll try to start having more contests because I have a lot of cool stuff! 

Anyways, GOOD LUCK. c:

My poem of the day:

Sunshine sweats at the mere sight

Of this flower of elegance,

With petals of golden bright

And pleasing draft of its sweet sense.

Face that turns, softly mentions

The grace that makes others jealous,

Swaying with no intention

Than that of being precious.

Allow me oh great beauty

To caress your face in my hands,

Protect you is my duty,

Without heed to the falling sands.

Thus I turn the other way

My love for you I shan’t let known

Unless your word-unless you may

Believe your love with a kiss, shown.

This weekend was the shiet! Got to chill at the Homecoming game with my buddies (even though our team got owned).

Saturday was homecoming, so went to take pictures. Dude, freaking awesome night, even though it didn’t turn out the way I hoped it would. I told my date that I really like her, and was hoping we could go on an actual date sometime, but she just wants to be friends. :’(. I’m not too sad though, as long as we friends, but I still like her.

Sunday morning, Keo helped me dye my hair! woo hoo! It was for my costume, which was Dumbo from Poreotics….nobody got the reference. XD. Went out with my cousins and just trick or treated a bit. Freaking JJ was wearing a bodyglove thing. I gotta say, that suit is very flattering for dudes.

Now I gotta crap load of candy and a monster energy drink, cuz one house was giving them out! heck yes, gonna be f***ing hyper this week!

Describe a personal challenge you are trying to overcome:

So pretty much, I’m a really awkward guy. Like, no joke, I shake when I talk to the girl I like, and I say random and somewhat awkward stuff. For example, when I asked the girl I really liked to homecoming this year, I was visibly shaking in the knees (but thankfully, my awkwardness in my face kept her from looking at my knees). I realized afterwards that my voice was shaking a bit too, but I gotta get over that. Heck, I’ve had a few relationships, and I’m still acting like a first timer at the dating game. I laugh about it now, but come tomorrow when I see her again I’m going to be like “oh no, here comes the shaking”, and then be all awkward and talk to her only a little bit. XD

Wait, I just realized I didn’t answer the prompt. So I’m trying to get over my nervousness and lack of confidence concerning girls this week. I think if I got over some of my nervous anxieties, I would have a better chance with the girl I like. Heck, homecoming is this week, and I’m still nervous! I think I can, I think I can…oh wait, my attitude has to be I know I can, I know I can. Now, I’m not trying to get her to be my girlfriend…yet. I’m just trying to prove to her that I’m a confident guy, and get her to try to like me a bit…if in the process, she becomes my girlfriend, so much the better.

So, this week is all about getting over my anxieties. Not only concerning the girl (but mostly), but also concerning school, dance, and university apps ( :’( ). Hopefully, I can just be a chill and confident guy from here on out, with no…actually, barely any anxieties. If I can get the girl I like to go out with me, then that will show whether or not I am better at this confidence game…wait, that sounds kinda wrong. What I meant to say was, see if I become more confident…well, that and the fact that I like her a lot. So, anyways, gotta go and work on my swag-er- confidence. If you got any tips, hit me up!

:)